Pseudo-boyfriend

he is rounding on the stage
high on acrobats and juggling
he saw her in the cheerful crowd

under her loud laughter
he sensed her pain of nothingness
in his unicycle, he flows to her

she giggled at the colors of his face
his joking gestures were goofy
forgetting her agony, she held
the hands of the bystanders

his teary eyes behind the shadow face
was illuminant with hope
but the show was getting over

she walked away with the bystanders
the joker of the circus was still,
on the stage giggling and melting
pseudo-boyfriend was dying inside