Love with Dapu
I was thinking about the past. I born and brought up in a middle class family. I struggled a lot to reach this level in my life. Now I am a Marketing Manager of big educational brand, in charge of Bangalore center. 10 years ago I was selling household products to get money for my graduation studies. Work and study it became a life style. Took Masters in Psychology. Unfortunately could not completer research in M.Phil. I have gone to Andaman and Nicobar islands after Tsunami to help people. I was in an educational project. I met Dapu online.
The hard way of my life made me to keep distance from enjoying life. I was silent. I was disciplined. I did not go for drinks. I did not mis-utilized the freedom given by God. But now I feel I was so strict to my life and others life. I have forgotten to enjoy life. It may be one of the reason Dapu left me. Pinoys are so westernized. They focus into happiness and enjoyment. And me? Old man! Old monk! Old junk! I was 27 in that time. But beings a 'good guy' was following few rules in my life. But now I feel, who wants good guys? Who will love serious guys? Indeed serious and silent people love more than sweet tongued men. But the difference is sweet tongued men shows, act love and silent guys will not show that. It is their failure. But trust me. They are so good. They are so reliable. They will not cheat you.
I was calling Dapu many times in a day. I wanted her presence always. I don't know how many times I was emailing in a day, how many times I was chatting, and calls and text messages. I loved her too much. I felt as if she was a part of my soul. I have seen the Goddess in her. She was so nice. But always she told me 'she is bad, she is a sinner'. I never like negative statements. But she continued this and the old song 'search an another woman'.
We decided to meet and get married on 2007 December. When I visited Head Office I asked the Executive Director transfer from Andaman and Nicobar Islands to Goa. I thought it would be difficult for Dapu to live in that Tsunami affected islands. More over I will not be there in Port Blair always. I had to travel to many islands. But the Executive director rejected my application. I was one of the best employee in that NGO. I was in a dilemma. Goa was good for Dapu since she is a Christian. Goa is having good number of Christian since it was a French colony. I decided to resign and start my own NGO in Goa.
I came back to Kerala and started LF. Mean time Dapu stopped contacting me. I was so afraid. I did not know what was happening. Her mobile was switched off. I was like caged lion. Days gone. One day I received call from a gulf country. It was Dapu! I was so angry at her. First of all I was against Muslims and working in Muslim countries. I heard few people saying Filipinas working in Gulf were having a free style living. Going with more than one man and partying. All these and her hidden plan to visit Gulf made me so angry. I was shouting at her for more than one hour. She was crying. Now I feel I am cruel... I am cruel... I am a sinner... I love her too much...
The hard way of my life made me to keep distance from enjoying life. I was silent. I was disciplined. I did not go for drinks. I did not mis-utilized the freedom given by God. But now I feel I was so strict to my life and others life. I have forgotten to enjoy life. It may be one of the reason Dapu left me. Pinoys are so westernized. They focus into happiness and enjoyment. And me? Old man! Old monk! Old junk! I was 27 in that time. But beings a 'good guy' was following few rules in my life. But now I feel, who wants good guys? Who will love serious guys? Indeed serious and silent people love more than sweet tongued men. But the difference is sweet tongued men shows, act love and silent guys will not show that. It is their failure. But trust me. They are so good. They are so reliable. They will not cheat you.
I was calling Dapu many times in a day. I wanted her presence always. I don't know how many times I was emailing in a day, how many times I was chatting, and calls and text messages. I loved her too much. I felt as if she was a part of my soul. I have seen the Goddess in her. She was so nice. But always she told me 'she is bad, she is a sinner'. I never like negative statements. But she continued this and the old song 'search an another woman'.
We decided to meet and get married on 2007 December. When I visited Head Office I asked the Executive Director transfer from Andaman and Nicobar Islands to Goa. I thought it would be difficult for Dapu to live in that Tsunami affected islands. More over I will not be there in Port Blair always. I had to travel to many islands. But the Executive director rejected my application. I was one of the best employee in that NGO. I was in a dilemma. Goa was good for Dapu since she is a Christian. Goa is having good number of Christian since it was a French colony. I decided to resign and start my own NGO in Goa.
I came back to Kerala and started LF. Mean time Dapu stopped contacting me. I was so afraid. I did not know what was happening. Her mobile was switched off. I was like caged lion. Days gone. One day I received call from a gulf country. It was Dapu! I was so angry at her. First of all I was against Muslims and working in Muslim countries. I heard few people saying Filipinas working in Gulf were having a free style living. Going with more than one man and partying. All these and her hidden plan to visit Gulf made me so angry. I was shouting at her for more than one hour. She was crying. Now I feel I am cruel... I am cruel... I am a sinner... I love her too much...
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